Just a Note

I AM ANGRY

At EVERYTHING, EVERYONE...

I AM TIRED.

NO MORE EXPLANATIONS.

I DON'T EXPECT ANYONE TO UNDERSTAND THIS TOO...

SO BE IT, I'LL STOP

The Lone Man

Once a friend wrote to me, the one who stands alone is the one who stands tall...
now i know what she meant..

Stars that Shine

There was a time that i used to wonder seeing the stars, that what will happen to my dreams.. the stars are still there, shining at me.. today when i was walking back home, i was looking at the sky and i felt like i'm that small kid who always loved to watch night sky, loved to be among them, who flash the sky with a torch and wonder when the light from torch gonna reach the star to which he aimed for...

i just felt to go back, be that kid again who was not afraid of his dreams...

just one more night...

For someone close to my heart..

One afternoon, during our second year in degree, you came to me and we started our friendship. it was so amazing for me that time. the one thing that made us close was the resemblance of ideas and interests. i felt really happy that i got someone to talk to and be open with.. and then it began.

our time was so short, i used to think. i never felt time was flying but it was. 3 years were over just like that. i still remember all the small things between us, the journey, the Christmas cards, birthday gifts, cakes, celebrations.. everything is there...but what important is, everything you ever been to me is so valuable to me. i have those memories in mind, all the time..as you always said, the twin souls. we were..

change does occur, right?. it has to, and we also got changed after that.. the calls got shorter, sometime nil.. but i truly believe that we haven't changed inside but other things got in our way of expressing it.. other problems, other priorities... 

i won't say our friendship rocked or it was the greatest time of our life, not at all..

i know the friendship was true and i really care and value every minute we had in life..

i used to drive you mad so well, can't forget that...

its time for you to take a big step in your life.. and my heart is with you, in whatever you do.. this friend is there, always to support you...

you've made me come back to something, something i lost in my life...and that was myself..

take care parvy...

Why?

i wrote these few days back, didn't want to publish but i guess its ok now. my mind has recovered from it...
so this is it.

for all the pain and dreams, burn me
for the end has to begin, i take it upon me
let me bleed out
let me scream, for everything i have been a reason
for every wrongs
for every discord
for every second spend in expectation
for every minute of hope that was in vain
for every reason
i'm responsible

as the dunes in desert
as the waves in an ocean
as the rain in mountains
i hover the ways of life
yet not reaching anywhere
just keep on circling
it never ends
it just transforms

my hopes and prayers end in silence
its so beautiful sometimes
i have a path before me
feels so good to walk alone

One Sunday

Sunday...

i woke up 7.30 in the morning, considering my life, its still to early but had to take pappa to a funeral..
i woke up and sat on the bad, my head was complaining inside, it wanted to sleep more. i was thinking about the dream i was about to finish the moment my mom woke me up. i felt silent and empty headed. it was a usual morning in january.. cool breeze was outside, i could hear it.

we set out and i was thinking about people while i was driving, my mom in back seat kept reminding me that i'm way over fast but i didn't listen.. pappa and mummy were chatting about something, i stopped listening and started lingering with memories..

every day begins as the sun rises and ends when we sleep, we goes through a number of instances everyday and its like a big drawing board and thousands of instances that makes up a big collage that our life is, everyone is connected to it some way..