A brief apology

this apology is just something I've been planning to do for long
I never wrote anything for almost an year, had so many experiences in life..never felt to write..
may be the relief I was getting from jotting down lines was not there till now
till today
or I was not so disturbed that it never let me go until I write about it
whatever the case is I've written something and I'm better
someday my brain will cease its all function, I know my thoughts don't survive my death but I really wish, that there was one thought, one idea formed and processed into it's finest form in my brain live through generations yet to come...
hope such an even happen in the near future!
have to keep my head up and running..
so this is the endnote to my apology
I'm so sorry for being lazy, for being away...
I'm here and I'll be here and I'll be writing

Disturbed

I wanna say something!
wanna scream out to the wind
its boiling inside
makes my sick
twisting my mind
still can't let it out
feels like I have walls inside me
want to get rid of all these bitterness
yet it keeps coming back
stronger and stronger
tides are growing high
winds are forming strong
my raft is still lost