Never Let Go

Letting go someone is not my option and i believe there's always a chance to return to what you closed.

Good Bye!

 This is a small note, i know not many people read my blog, in fact only 3 reads it. but this is my mind, my sweat and tears. this is my life

all my life i tried to be different and find out something new, i am thoughtful for a lot of reasons, its my heartfelt pain that such a mind never did any good to me, except i got trapped in a world of ideals built for myself. i realize sometimes that its not possible in a human life to follow such ideals for we act according to situations, and every situation is created by a chain of events. it just makes me say there's no control over things or there's a very greater deal of control that we just don't understand.

So this small note is for my friends, there's a fair amount of friends can't stand my thoughts, there are others who loves it. i'm writing it for the ones who love me, for the haters they have their reasons and probably right about that.

i am writing this because i'm giving myself a rest, its like a period of inactivity. i have to do some things and make up my life, otherwise i'll always be a pain for my friends who love me and for the opposite, a subject for fun.
i'm not intending to be both. So i am leaving you all. If i'm reaching where i should be or in a position that they can proudly say about our friendship, then i'll return to you.

i know i'll miss a lot of things in life, but i have to do this.
take care
bye

Before the Sunset

many a times, i felt speechless in this world, surrounded by words in my mind, i felt numb.
like a honk of a train, words came and left me. like faint notes, like rain, it showered on me.
i stood and wet myself. this one day shall not be forgotten...
this one day is special...
silence must be heard
souls must be awakened
the earth must be trembled
everything must be renewed.