Love and Remembrance

i was not sure to write today but something was telling me to do, like there was something in my chest just waiting to explode out. whatever it is, i like it. it has formed in my mind and its my child.

all my life i felt a craving to be loved, there was many crossroads in life where i had to choose. many people loved me and many hated. i remember those who loved me, they loved me as one of their own. even with all my shortcomings in attitude, they found a simply way to love me.

i was confused about love, and being open in heart, i am someone who like to be loved a lot, yet i can't truthfully say i have loved them back equally. i wanted my love to be without any definitions, we can't simply put love in to a box called relation. i believed that..   love is something so higher that most of us never knew it.

i have done many mistakes in my life, some for love, some other for just relief and yet some other for pleasure and i know i have caused a lot of tears. it was like a river never stopped flowing. it keeps on flowing and i let myself drown in it. it may be my mistake but i let my feelings to define me. most of the times i was in control but sometimes i just let it take over me..

when i look back now, whatever that has happened had a reason, and i won't disavow any of that. let my sins be with me...