A dream?

I joined in Kongunadu after a lot of confusions and problems, from the first day i knew i made a mistake but stepping back from anything i started was not something i'd thrill about. days passed, i kept on failing exams, couldn't understand anything, felt wasted a lot of money. the days were hell as well as nights. too much stress, teachers were not at all encouraging but they had enough time to make fun of me.
i still remember my practical model exam, i stood there without any clue about it, didn't know anything. i just washed some glasswares, didn't know why i did that. i looked around and everyone is busy doing practical, i felt alone and to run away. Rabeeth sir came and helped me, seeing my face like that i guess, or did he have a heart to help people, i never thought so before and i never knew it after. muthukumar sir called me for viva, i stepped in, sat there and told him "sir, there's no need of this, I don't know anything, anything at all" he was stunned, guess it was the first time a student says like this. he asked some silly questions and i answered. he told me "you know things". somehow it was over, but the practical main exams were easy somewhat. the model exam taught me really.
the first semester exams, theory papers i'll never forget, the fear of failure was that much. i sleep for 20 minutes in night and read all i can, the last exam of first semester was Bio instrumentation, i used to go with my bucket to reading room so i can save some time when i go to bath. on that day while i was walking through the corridor to bathroom, i imagined "how will it be when i walk to bathroom for my last exam here?" days passed, i grew older, M.Sc was tough and one day i knew, the day i dreamt years before is the next day....

i remember walking on the same corridor with a smile for my last exam, it was environmental biotechnology, i sighed and told myself, this is over, in some 3 or 4 hours i'm out of this circle, felt relieved and wrote my exam. when it was over i thought i would be happy but even then i didn't feel much. just like its over...

may be my life made me impermeable to some, while others are more intrusive...
where is the real relief, is it in mind or something that affects our mind???
where i can find that answer???

"Know Thy Self"

May be Someday I shall...