Feeling insecure

today i'm tired thinking, what makes my life this much tied to things i want to break, its tough................
i tried to do things better but for some it turned out to be their biggest pains. i'm not gonna talk about who and what they are now, they had enough already with me why make them more sad, most of the time the happiness they had being with me was very little compared to the sufferings which was enormous.... may be my nature of seeing things and life made it bad for them.

i was always like that, i'll admit, i was not someone who would go along with a normal life. but skipping to what people refer normal was never a choice for me.... the ones who loved me always found i'm a good reason that can cause immense heartache, i know one, i know it didn't have to end like that but its over now and i feel its the right thing to do. i couldn't make it straight, always had misunderstandings and worries and i'm not blaming the other side, it was my fault and it will be, always. once i had an expectation that it wont be a complete silence, we knew each other i believe, yet its better to be in silence, time fades everything.....